I.
He sat up in bed. He was still wearing
his suit from the night before, coat thrown on the floor,
his brown vest half unbuttoned and twisted around his
torso. Beside of him lay a woman whose name didn't
matter, still sleeping in the noon sunlight that glinted
through her French blinds. Scratching his hind-parts, he
stood up, nearly tripping on the sheets that lay sprawled
around the floor. Too much scotch, he thought to himself
as he walked into the shower. He reveled in the warmth of
the water as it washed away the smell of expensive
perfume, cigarettes, and liquor. Quietly he hummed a song
in a language no one spoke anymore as he washed himself.
He prided himself in his knowledge of the arts, of the
little things that make humanity in particular so damned
interesting.
While he dried himself with one of her
thick, white towels, silently appreciating the heft of
the cloth, he thought about the great diversity of eggs,
of the phenomenal number of ways in which such a simple
item could be prepared. Yes, this morning, eggs would
taste good. But dammit, he said as he glanced at the
clock, probably too late to get them today. Such was the
price of sleeping late.
He pulled on a fresh suit exactly like
that he had worn the night before. Green tweed with a
brown linen vest. He fit a smartly tied red tie under his
starched white collar, dropped his pocket watch into his
vest pocket, and brushed his bright red hair three times.
It fell into place like a charm, and he followed it up
with a spritz of cologne, something of his own design
(again, he enjoyed the finer things in life).
Finally he fitted a small white daisy
into his jacket pocket, and sat down on the bed to tie on
his simple brown shoes. As he tied them on, he quietly
observed the breathing of the girl laying there. So soft,
so delicate, like a breeze blowing over a field of
green-yellow grass, the silk sheets heaved with her life.
He lay a small bouquet of daisies beside the girl, picked
up his ancient brown overcoat, and walked out the door,
whistling Mozart and thinking of eggs.
II.
The man in the green suit rolled down
the window of the taxi, letting the wind reshape his hair
just as it had reshaped the earth and skies for
millennia. The taxi smelled slightly stale, though in a
not entirely unappealing way. The driver was quiet, but
would occasionally glance back at the man in the green
suit in his mirror. The driver's eyes were dark brown,
his skin chestnut, his hair black. He was clean shaven,
but a slight stubble was already beginning to peak
through his chin. The tiny gold cross around his neck
said he was Catholic while the wedding ring on his left
hand lied as he pretended his wife was still alive. His
passenger wanted to tell him that she had gone well, that
she had been ready when her time came, that she wasn't in
pain, that she didn't know what had happened until she
was already on her Way. But he couldn't. No, no. That was
a lie. He could tell that man in the front seat, he could
whisper it in his ears. But what would it achieve?
Perhaps it would drive him insane, perhaps he would begin
the mourning process all over again, perhaps he would
stop the taxi and bloody the man in the green suit's lip.
No, he didn't need to know. And so when the taxi stopped
the man in the green suit instead gave his driver a
five-dollar tip and walked away, comforted by the
tap-tap-tap of his simple brown shoes.
III.
The air still had a chill in it, and
the man in green suit thrust his hands deep into his
overcoat pockets to fend off the cold. The sun glowed
white in the light blue sky, and a quiet breeze blew
through the newly flowering trees. The man in the green
suit had decided to get out of the taxi a mile from his
destination so that he could walk through this small
park. The way was lined with dogwood and cherry, and the
path seemed to be a long hallway, clad in pink and ivory
wallpaper. A goldfinch landed about six feet to his left,
and the man in the green suit paused to watch it pick
open a seed it had been carrying with it. One year, three
months, twelve days, fourteen hours, twenty-three minutes
thought the man in the green suit.
"Dammit," he whispered to
himself as he walked on. "I have got to stop
thinking about work in my off-time."
As the man in the green suit continued
on, he shook his head and thought: one year, three
months, twelve days, fourteen hours, twenty-two minutes.
IV.
A hotdog can be a wonderful thing. A
hotdog can warm your hands when they are cold. Its
mustard and onions can open your nose, and teaching you
how to smell all over again. The flavor of chili reminds
of your mother in January, when she would spend hours
hovering over a pot of beans and beef and canned
tomatoes. As a whole the hotdog cries of the spirit of
baseball, which is itself a distillation of everything
that is good about America. When you are hungry a hotdog
can fill your stomach and make you feel content and ready
for a good nap. Hotdogs are wrapped in paper or foil
(with a paper backing), materials perfect for crunching
into balls and making lay-ups (normally unsuccessfully)
into trash cans and girlfriend's purses. As the man in
the green suit ate his hotdog, he thought about these
things, occasionally wiping his mouth with a small white
napkin. He noticed the manner of hotdog vendor, his
fading accent (Mississippian), the stains on his apron,
the way he closed his eyes briefly each time he opened
the his cart to make another, taking in the smell,
enjoying it, reveling in it. The vendor's cart had an
umbrella, red and yellow. The cart itself reflected the
surrounding cityscape, a world of skyscrapers and trees,
an empire of pedestrians and buses. "Hurley's
Dogs" was written in bold black uppercase letters on
the side of the cart and steam crept out of a small flaw
in the sealing on its far left door.
The man in the green suit finished his
hotdog and lifted himself off of the cold, smooth marble
bench which had been his home for the last twenty
minutes. He finished off the last sip of his coffee and
tossed his garbage into a nearby wastebasket. The air had
warmed around him, and he neatly folded his ancient brown
overcoat over his left arm. He considered purchasing a
hot pretzel, but instead turned and began walking down
the street. Hurley saw his customer leaving, and waved
behind him, and the man in the green suit smiled and
nodded back, never stopping. Tap-tap-tap.
V.
No one noticed the man in the green
suit get on the elevator. No one noticed him get off that
same elevator and onto the observatory deck. When he
climbed to the top of the radio tower (no small feat for
a man his age), not a single person so much as twitched
an eyebrow. As the man in the green suit settled into his
seat, he began scanning the world of glass and stone
which surrounded him. Like the hives of some surreal race
of termites, humanity's creations rose high above the
earth, fighting wind and gravity with steel and cement.
Far below, in the realms of the normal, men and women
were engaged in a thousandfold ventures. Here a
construction worker was leaning against a great steel
beam, remembering the day he first kissed his wife. There
a secretary was eating a Caesar salad, wondering if she
was pregnant. A hundred yards to her left, in a
department store, a husband was shopping for diamonds. He
was telling the girl at the register that they were for
his wife. They weren't.
In a nearby school twenty-seven
children sat in a class, their books open to a story
about a bear and a crocodile. Only four were actually
looking at their books. One little boy, with coal black
hair, was drawing a picture of a purple monster with four
heads. The teacher saw him, but decided to let it pass,
since the little boy, whose name was Jacob, was making
excellent grades in reading. She smoothed her soft blue
dress against her dark brown skin, thinking about the
upcoming weekend, about her husband, about mowing the
lawn (he was sure it was going to need it), about how
good it would feel to just sleep in his arms late into
the day. She smiled, and straightened her brown
turtleshell glasses.
Noiselessly the man in the green suit
turned to face a hospital. The hospital, a brick and
marble building, sat on a hill to the south. The hill was
covered with thousands of flowers and trees of every
imaginable species, and. It was a beautiful place, a
Monet come to life. The man in the green suit ran his
fingers through his hair and stared at the building.
Three police cars sat parked in the front lot and a white
ambulance rested just outside of the Emergency room.
Inside that hospital thirty-four people would die today.
Yesterday it was twenty-six. Tomorrow it will be eleven.
The man in the green suit looked down from the hospital,
down at the streets below, at the termites scurrying from
this steel mound to the next. Slowly a sad smile crossed
his face and even more slowly (though again, making good
time for a man of his age) he climbed down from his
precipice, wondering if there were enough daisies in that
garden on the hill to make a good bouquet.
VI.
The halls of the hospital were tiled in
a blue the color of a Carribean sea set against other
tiles of white flecked with pink and green. The air
smelled of inhuman things, of ammonia and rubbing alcohol
and cleaning liquid. The man in the green suit did not
like hospitals, not because of the work he had to do
there, but because of the entirely inhuman, or perhaps
‘unhuman' feeling of the places. They were not the
domain of termites, but of inhuman automatons, robots
cleaning, robots healing, robots carrying away the dead.
No, this was not entirely true, he
reminded himself. The doctor with the green surgery
scrubs who brushed against him, for instance, she had two
children and collected Elvis Presley records. She claimed
to love opera, but it was her husband who really loved
opera, not her. Nevertheless she studied it diligently,
could recognize any great aria, debate the underlying
psychological meaning of any major Italian piece, or
discuss (at considerable length) which parts of Mozart's
Requiem were really written by Mozart. But in truth she
loved Elvis, the way he moved, the energy he exuded, the
way his music made the world seem to sway to the
back-beat.
The man in the green suit smiled.
In Room 423 a woman was dying. Her name
was Rebecca and her family had all moved on, all over the
country. The nearest would arrive two hours after Rebecca
died. She had been walking down the street when the
stroke came, walking to a nearby grocery store. Her first
thought as she fell was not about her life, but about her
glasses, which fell from her face and broke against the
hard sidewalk. She lay there on her side, staring at
those glasses and thought about the day she had gotten
them, nearly two decades before, with Thomas. Tom. She
missed Tom.
Now she lay on a bed in a cold room.
For the first time in her life she found herself unable
to talk, but that was not so distressing to her as one
might imagine, since she had no one to talk to. Then
slowly she became aware of someone sitting in the dark,
watching. It was a man, with a suit, sitting in a chair
pulled into the corner. He sat, watching her, his eyes
catching the faint light teasing in through the shades.
A nurse came into the room and checked
the old woman's signs, scribbled some notes, changed an
IV bag. She noticed the furniture was a little
disheveled, and straightened it up. She was
procrastinating, the man in the green suit noticed,
because the man in the next room had been crying all
night with pain, regardless of the drugs he was given. He
had been burnt severely in a car accident, had seen his
child die. The man in the green suit swallowed hard
thinking about the child, about his lovely brown eyes,
his tiny little hands.
The nurse finally left the room and the
man in the green suit walked up to Rebecca. He rubbed her
soft white hair with his thumb and looked into her light
blue eyes. One shone, one was dim. He might have winced
if he had not seen it so often before. But he had.
He leaned down and whispered in her ear
that she didn't have to worry anymore, that she would not
leave this place alone, and that her children had been
raised well. A tear welled in her good eye, and the man
wiped it away, smiling his sad smile. She wanted to know
who he was, he could tell, and he just smiled and said he
was just someone who understood. She managed a half-smile
(my God, thought the man in the green suit, how strong,
how incredibly, beautifully strong) and he bent over and
kissed her cheek. He noticed that she smelled of perfume
and baby powder and he paused over her, taking in the
comforting odors. Then he turned around and sat down in
the chair.
Two hours later the doctors rushed into
the room, carrying their tools and devices, the pride of
humanity. A man with a gray beard shouted out orders. The
orders were carried out with the swift precision of a
well-oiled machine or a finely tuned military unit. The
air was filled with the scream of alarms, the odor of
inhuman cleanliness became overpowering. The man in the
green suit watched them, artists of the human frame,
trying to replicate the majesty of creation, and he
delighted in their inventiveness. The dance lasted for
six, seven minutes, until finally the doctor called an
end, and a young nurse pulled a sheet over what used to
be Rebecca. The man in the green suit noticed how the
nurse paused and looked into the old woman's now vacant
eyes and found himself strangely pleased by her
compassion. Gradually the screams and whines of the
machines were silenced, gradually the room emptied. The
man in the green suit looked at his pocket watch,
replaced it into his vest pocket, and stood up. It felt
good to stretch his legs.
As he left the hospital, the man in the
green suit again noticed the odors, the sound of his
simple brown shoes tapping on the floor. He danced to a
bit of a Frank Sinatra to a song that was playing over
the hospital's intercom system, and as he walked out of
the hospital's sliding glass doors, he smiled.
VII.
The ocean. Few things are so great, so
powerful, so vibrant. The man in the green suit thought
of the ocean, of the swelling of blue-green waves touched
with white, of the unending roar that was really an
infinite collection of smaller noises all jumbled and
entangled, weaving thunder from whispers. Few things
could be compared to it. No, that was not right, thought
the man in the green suit. Many things could be compared
to the ocean. It was only that few things could
meaningfully be compared to it. And this, this was one of
those things.
In front of the man in the green suit
lay an ocean of men and women and children. None of them
were truly connected, none of them truly understood the
others, but there they were, thousands of them joined
together in one place, unconsciously creating something
greater than themselves. The odor of their bodies, sweaty
with the heat, filled the air with salt. Skin and hair
and clothing mingled into a single vibrant blur. Their
voices mixed into an indecipherable whole, an
unintelligible humming, churning sound. Yes, thought the
man in the green suit as he pulled sweet-tasting cola
though a straw, these people, these teeming masses, they
are an ocean in the most real sense, weaving thunder from
whispers, and he smiled at his cleverness.
The game slowly transpired below him.
One man threw a ball, one man swung at it. With each
subtle movement the crowd reacted, with each crack of the
bat nine men moved as one, like birds in flight. Eighteen
brightly clad harlequins united thousands of ordinary
people in a dance about a stick of wood and a small white
ball. The man in the green suit smiled to think of it,
and then let out a yell, just to hear his own voice. The
water felt good.
VIII.
Purple and orange and red crept into
the sky, gradually nudging out the light blue of day.
Here and there a few bright stars began to appear,
glittering white or red or yellow. The wind rustled the
newly green leaves softly, like a mother stroking the
hair of her first-born son. Lights began to come on,
flourescent sunshine of every imaginable hue. Bats and
owls left their hiding places, intent on finding morsels
and fostering humanity's lingering fears and
superstitions. Somewhere a train was passing nearby,
clackity-clack, clackity-clack. A boat sounded from the
river, its horn bellowing like a blinded cyclops. The air
was cooling, and the man in the green suit pulled on his
ancient brown overcoat. The weight felt good on his
shoulders, and he admired his reflection in a plate-glass
window as he walked past. Dew settled on the grass and
trees, materializing as if from nothing. The man in the
green suit smiled and felt a distinct kinship to the dew,
which, he thought to himself, was an unusual thing to
feel a kinship to. But it didn't concern him, and he
shrugged his shoulders, buttoned his overcoat, and kept
walking.
IX.
Fettuccine Alfredo, considered the man
in the green suit, ranks with the greatest creations of
humanity, just above the Great Wall of China, but
slightly lower than Mark Twain's Huckleberry Finn. He
took a pull from a bottle of Italian beer and paused from
his meal to peel off its label. The man in the green suit
smoothed the damp, brightly colored label on the red and
white checkered tablecloth (why, he wondered, do all
Italian restaurants have red and white checkered
tablecloths) and admired his handiwork. The candle in
front of him flickered with his own breath.
Not far away sat a woman. She had light
brown hair with the slightest highlights of red. Her skin
that was slightly tanned, to the color of an almond,
perhaps. She was alone, and sat pouring over a book,
which the man in the green suit knew was a copy of The
Three Musketeers (another of the finest creations of
humanity). He admired the way her clothes fell on her,
revealing the shape of her body in the most subtle of
ways. She wore jeans and a sweater two sizes too big, and
when she ate she immediately followed each bite with a
dab of her napkin.
The man in the green suit called the
waiter to his side and told him to send a bottle of a
particularly good merlot to the woman with two glasses
and his best wishes. A few minutes later the waiter
returned from the cellars and carried the wine to the
woman, bending over to answer questions that the man in
the green suit couldn't hear. He finished off his
fettuccine, scraping his plate with a crust of bread,
then looked up to see the woman standing beside of him,
the bottle of wine in one hand, two glasses in the other.
"I can't finish an entire bottle
myself," said the woman as a slight smile crept
across her features. "Would you be willing to
help?"
X.
The night carried on forever as the man
in the green suit and the woman with the reddish-brown
hair laughed and told stories. Or rather, as the woman
with the reddish-brown hair told stories and the man in
the green suit listened eagerly, urging her on with new
questions and quizzical looks. She told him about her job
(she was a doctor) and where she grew up (she was born
and raised in a suburb of Chicago, in southeast
Wisconsin). She told him about the crazy things she did
in college (including the slip-and-slide incident at four
in the morning, inside her dormitory, during exams and
immediately following the mass consumption of far too
much very bad beer), about the kind of music she liked
(jazz, mostly), and about the time her date for the
Christmas formal her Senior year in high school called
her forty minutes before to let her know he was taking
someone else. She told him about making out with Billy
Robinson in a closet during church when she was fourteen
and about how she would sometimes go to the movies alone,
even though that was, in her mind, just about the most
depressing thing anyone could possibly do. And the man in
the green suit listened, delighting in every word,
sipping on good merlot, noting the fullness in his belly,
and feeling immensely content.
The woman with the reddish-brown hair
had her right hand resting on her book, just off to the
right of her wine glass. The man in the green suit looked
at it, wondering at the incredible delicacy of the thing.
He wondered how it felt (not how hands felt, mind you,
but how her hand felt) and so he gradually moved his hand
over until it lay on her own. She blushed slightly, but
not for long, and as he looked into her green-blue eyes,
he ran his thumb over her hand, feeling every crevice. It
was smooth like marble or alabaster, cool on top but warm
in the palm, which was just noticeably damp with
perspiration. He felt the slick hardness of her nails,
which were only slightly longer than his own, and ran his
thumb in circles over her knuckles.
Around them the waiters had put up most
of the chairs, laying them upside-down on the red and
white checkered tablecloths, silently urging their
patrons to leave. The man in the green suit pulled out
his wallet and threw a good-sized wad of money on the
table as he stood up. Shall we share a cab asked the man
in the green suit, and the woman with the reddish-brown
hair only smiled and blushed, picked up her book in one
hand and looped her other arm into his own as they walked
out the door.
XI.
White morning light flooded the room
through the sheer curtains that covered the windows. The
man stood up from the bed, moving aside quilts and
blankets. He was still dressed, his collar opened and his
tie laying at the foot of the bed. The girl with the
reddish-brown hair lay asleep beside of him on her
stomach, and he watched as she breathed, the quilt
heaving ever so slightly. He walked into her bathroom,
shut the door and started the shower. He looked at
himself in the mirror, watching steam creep over his
image until he was no more than a blur, a living myth,
then he stepped into the shower. As he showered he
remembered a joke he had heard a very, very long time ago
about a priest, a farmer, and a barkeep and he laughed
quietly to himself. As he shaved he noticed the way the
shaving cream and stuble circled slowly around the drain
before sinking, and then laughed again, this time at
himself for being far too poetic for so early.
After drying off and dressing, the man
pulled on a fresh suit exactly like that he had worn the
night before. He knotted a red tie into a half-windsor
under his starched white collar, dropped his old, brass
pocket watch into his vest pocket, brushed his bright red
hair three times and followed up everything with a spritz
of cologne, again, something of his own design. He
slipped a daisy into his jacket pocket and sat down in a
soft pink chair that sat beside the girl with
reddish-brown hair's dressing table to tie his shoes. He
paused for nearly fifteen minutes between his left shoe
and his right, watching her sleep. Her eyelids twitched,
her lips curled into a faint smile, and a lock of her
hair lay over her face. Her breathing made it sway side
to side like a thin beech sapling in a breeze, and the
man in the green suit watched it perform, relishing the
ballet.
Finally, the man in the green suit
finished tying his shoes and walked over to the bed. He
laid a small kiss on the top of the woman with
reddish-brown hair's head. He lingered, enjoying the
smell and the way the light shone on her cheeks, then set
a small bouquet of daisies beside her. As he walked
towards the door, the man in the green suit stopped and
turned, taking one last glance at the room and its
inhabitant. Then he turned, pulling on his ancient brown
overcoat. As he walked down the hall and out the door, he
listened to the sound of his coat brushing against
furniture. As he stepped onto the sidewalk, the swoosh of
the coat was replaced by the tap-tap-tapping of his
simple brown shoes, which in turn was replaced by the
sound of a taxi's engine.
"Where to," asked the cabbie
without turning around.
The man in the green suit paused, not
certain what he should say, then he smiled and said,
well, do you know anyplace around that cooks up good
eggs?
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